Surprising how the whole world knew about me being sick on the weekend. I only told 2 friends, 1 is whom I can rely to inform the universities authorities, and another because I need to explain the reason for the delay handing in my part of presentation.
What surprised me was how news spread. Not surprising that how a few people knew about it, but surprising that how some people i dun expect them to know about it get to know about it.
I am guessing if she's reading this, she'd go "Yeah lor, you so popular", or something along the line. I could feel her nagging me about popularity etc.
Was surprised. Didn't blog this to show off, maybe i'm sometime a showoff, but not like this. I know she don't like, and I won't do things she don't like. Just surprised at how some people will ask how was I, showing concern and stuff, but the closest of all people just ignore the fact that I just got discharged. It's not that I still feel unwell, but to me, that's what relationship is all about. Care and concern.
Maybe she's really tired and reached her peak and on the verge of breaking down. I don't blame her for that. But normally, people who breakdown, they dun really notice. They just dun see what they have. They just see what they don't have, and they keep on going about what they dun have. For example, if a man who only live with his wife, his wife is bedridden, he needs to take care of his sick wife, complaining of all the tiredness from his work, which pays him quite handsomely, but yet not that ridiculously high amount. He complained about all the work he have to do at home, and at work, he will fail to realize that he has a good job, he has companion, even bedridden person is better than no person. He will forget about happy moments in his life, but look more at those sad, tough, torturing, lonely life. He will forget that he has a healthy body to keep this going. He will only realize what he had only when he lost it. If he lost his job, or his wife, or even lost his ability to work or even his own life. Just imagine the kind of catastrophe that would go through his mind if each case were to happen. The regrets he would bear across his heart pain, and the number of "I should have".
Be smarter today, don't be smart only after catastrophe happen.
PS.
The fact that i can write this entry, and still yearning for care and concern, shows me that human being knows, but doing, and knowing is 2 different things.
Doing is tough, dun expect to be able to do it everytime. Human are prone to make mistakes, thats why we have a term called human errors. Just knowing it is good enough, and in time, be able to do it before it's too late would be sufficient. I think. hahahaha
