Today's suppose to be the day I get discharge.... Should b a happy day.... But I'm not happy... Is she gone from my life?.....
Y can't she keep her promise of waiting? Did I make her keep many promises? So promises are meant to b kept? Or be broken? I noe I have broken a few.... But I really tried hard to keep all of them.... I really did... Maybe the promises I asked her to keep is simply too impossible....
What does all these really mean? Will she avoid me? Will she wait? Will she look for new guys? Yes. I am not happy with the decision... But I really dun wan her to suffer.... Her request is easier said than done... Not with my parents still alive, breathing and kicking....
Nothing I had done is for myself....
I came to thailand is becos my parents asked me to. Not that I'm not grateful, I am. I came in exchange of an education. They agreed and provide me 1.... So should I just go back singapore without helping them at all?
Calling me selfish... Maybe I am selfish in wanting u to wait... But if u aren't waiting then I have nothing for myself le.... I really dun have le.....
Maybe u'll find someone better than me.... Hope u'll intro him to me.... I need to see for myself a better man.... Treat him the same u would treat me.... If he really does better, then at least I know ur in better hand..... I can at least let u go easier....
This could be the end... Or not.... Regretted not starting this earlier... I meant the blog... So many things unwritten.... So many stories untold... So many things we haven't done together....
No matter what, I still want to be her fren.... I want to be there for her when someone else breaks her heart...
I am heartbroken... But I m sure it will b fixed 1 day...
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