Its some sort of mixed emotion that went through my mind when I saw the purple orange light on my bb. I was excited, thrilled. Yet worried and scared. I didn't like this feeling at all, I hope it will one day be no more.
I had learned how to not wait for her mail in only a couple of days. I used to be excited to receive email, hoping its from her. Disappointed when I only see red blinking light. But disappointment after disappointment, I had learned not to expect, and suddenly, I wasn't excited when my phone rings. Fast learner ain't I?
Anw, the conversation was not exciting me anymore, she even think I am showing her pity. She bought me something from universal studio, it would have made me jump, hop and sing with joy last time, but now I'm so cool about it, even I felt weird.
Hoping to get some kinds of update from her on blog, so I would really noe what's on her mind, cos her emails, she won't tell me anything. I dunno if she's happy, or sad. But from her excitement and shopping, I think she's better. Maybe she saw my entry on the blog, and took a pity on me instead? I dunno. No time to think about it. Have work.
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