Today's 14th October, the anniversary of that dreadful day that happened to my university many years ago, I think in 1981. It has been many days since students had gathered to protest, for the country to change to democracy governing in Thailand, in Thammasart University, the exact location: My university, this very day in 1981. It was the day that the government ordered the military to shoot the the protesting students this very day 29 years ago. Many people died on this day all over the compound of the university this very day. The soccer field was covered with corpse, the school building was covered in bullet holes and the river which runs along the university was red with blood. Many corpses were ordered to be hung from trees in the university compound, the roads outside of the university were more armed soldiers ambushing those who tried to escape. It was a Massacre on that day. But it had also led to the Big Brothers of the world to demand Thailand to change its governing to democracy form. These students were heroes.
Hence every year, on this day, people would come to my university to pay respects for these heroes of the country. My school would be packed with cars and parking would be impossible during this day. It had happened to me the last 2 years (Unable to find a parking lot), hence this year, I came early. But too early le... Hahahaha... But it's better than late.
Used so long to explain the reason for being early today. *Smack head*
Anw, I sent her an email, worried about her sleep. But she's really trying hard to avoid any form of conversation with me, she ask me to read her blog. Then suddenly, it came to light to me that I haven't been using the computer to do anything for my free time since I came back to university for class after being discharged from hospital. I was really busy. I even forgot to check her blog.
Anw, this morning i'll be free to 1.30 pm, so I use the time to read her blog, and found that she'd been blogging at a more regular basis. I do not think replying to her blog here would be very useful, or would it contribute to our relationship much. The last thing I want is a war on blog, like those of the celebrity bloggers. We're not celebrity, so no need for that.
I think it's best to keep the blogs free of quarrels. Like she used to tell me, "喜欢就说，想念就联络". I'll continue to email her if I am not too busy, but I'll keep them to the minimum, so she'll likely not be feeling pestered by me, nor do I want to be a pest to her. But it doesn't mean that I only miss her when I'm not busy. It's just the 1st available free timing to contact her.
Talking about greed, human in nature are greedy. Not just in term of wealth, food, love, belongings, materialistic stuffs, power, or popularity. There's really more to that. But there's no way to be fully self sufficient. When you greed on food, you'll be fat, you'll probably will be less likely to be attractive, like me, I'm fat and I'm not attractive. But if I put it in a nice way, fat and ugly people like me, we're not greedy for attention from other people, right? While on the other hand, super model they eat just enough, some cases, barely enough food. Yes, they may not be greedy for food. But they're greedy on making themselves beautiful, and greedy for attention, and fame and maybe wealth. Right?
Hence in a relationship, greediness of something it just means that you're being less greedy in something else. If you yearn and greed for attention, you are just less greedy in time for yourself, you are being less greedy on the freedom, you are less greedy on selfishness. It's highly unlikely that when you receive the attention you required, and not return the attention to your partner. Hence it's a cycle. But like all kinds of stuffs in the world, too much of something is always not good. Learning to balance everything should be the way.
Like I always emphasize, normal relationships, are normal, they get physical contacts and communications. For LDR, we need to balance it up too. We have less physical contacts, so we need more communications. I've read from somewhere, from a successful LDR example, that LDR couples should not take communications lightly, and successful LDR couple who got together do not take communication for granted. I forgot the link of this, but i pasted it on the link of my blog for reference. If you're free, take a look.
I will need to be starting to do my work now, so I would stop right here.
