03 February 2012

Thoughts

"I am stuck with my commitments now, living my life for other people. I don't want to be stuck w new commitments again for my next 30 years. I want to lead a life of my own. Travel or retire in peace with someone who understands and accept that. That's why I don't want get married or have kids. U understand?... U don't understand."

Although its no longer important now, no matter what we won't be tgt again. Jus my habit to analyze things. Please do not read this post when emotional.

My thoughts? Commitment does not just belong to hers. If we really do get married, I'm liable to share her responsibility too. Not 1 way. Its both way. She has commitment, so do I. I also dun want my parents so old le still have to work this hard. Still have to be so stress. By being together with her, I need to work extra hard... Not to mention the additional mouth to feed... I need to make enough for my family, for the workers, for her, for her family, and if we have kids, the list grows on... Rmb I told her that she don't have to work?

Who in the world in this world have no commitment? If u dun want new commitment, u wouldn't get a new house. Dun think its commitment that u din want. It has to be something else. But its ok, we'll leave it at commitment at this moment.

Not looking for a quarrel. Just a different in opinion. Different logic. Sometimes its just that the answer wasn't that clear. Sometime u dunno what u want, hence u would contradict urself. Everyone is the same.

U r not stupid. U just feel that this is the correct way. Maybe one fine day u'll find the exact things u want. But until then, I respect all kinds of decisions made by u.

For as long as u have a reason for u to take such extreme measures, I respect it. Its not an easy decision to make. As long as I understand it, I'll accept it.


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