Woke up 6.15 to get out of home about 7am. Just so I could try to catch a glimpse of her walking to work. Reached Tanjong Pagar at 8am.
Didn't want her to see me... Cos I felt I am doing stupid thing... I didn't want to see her reaction when she sees me... I sat at the bus stop outside the demolished Party World KTV.
Found the bus stop too far... cannot see anything.... Decided to cross the traffic light and maybe catch a glimpse of her from behind when she crosses the road..... Alas 9am reached. and she's nowhere in sight. Sat at the fountain where I used to wait for her to come off work. Alas, god is playing trick on me. A wasted trip. Just like the whole relationship. A wasted effort once more. I decided to walk off my disappointment. Destination: No where.
Ended up at the Merlion. Being a Singaporean. I felt ashamed that this is my first visit to the merlion. Weather was super hot. With nowhere to go and dunno what to do, I felt irrelevant here in Singapore. A waste of space, a waste of resources. Seriously, with her out of my life, I felt like Singapore is no longer a home to me le... Even though I am born and bred in Singapore. Spent most of my childhood here.
Walked to esplanade. Suddenly recalled the time when we met for lunch here at Esplanade. With ES and her. I remember the Japanese restaurant which was on the 2nd floor near the escalator. Does she remember that place? Sad to say, the Japanese restaurant is no longer there le. I used to think that ES and her was dating. LOLz. ANW, made me very nervous when we were together. I am very afraid to tell ES of our relationship.
Ended up walking to Marina Square. Walked the whole day. 6pm., I had walked the whole day. Played arcade, played bowling, played pool. All alone. I felt lonely. I needed to talk to her. I needed to know how she thinks. I don't want to meet her on Saturday and feel awkward. I decided to msg her. to meet her.
