She forgot about the time.

I think I had that kind of experience. She say I do not have self-control back then. She used to wait for me at late night, and she would call me when I'm in the middle of a meal with friend. She would lose her temper and scold me. Even though I always get away from my frens when answering a phone call, I still go back making everyone awkward because I would look kinda sad. Back then I felt sorry for making her wait and worry.

Today out role is reversed. I'm waiting. I called her, didn't scold her. Didn't mean to break her party. In the end, she didn't feel sorry at all for making me wait, or lose sleep. She only feel sorry for herself for not able to enjoy herself longer. She reprimand me for calling her.

If I were to do the same to her back then, what would she say say back then I wonder. Would she say sorry for making my outing awkward?

What I did differently was just temper. Should I flare at her when calling her back then? I really dunno.

I dunno how many more times I have to read her entry. Everytime I read, a new flashback appear. Its a really long entry. I really dunno how long it takes her to write. But she dun sound apologetic.

I was always quite popular. With frens, with relatives, with classmates. I always succeed in winning eberyone's heart with my traits. I do all kinds of activities and had success in them. I play ok basketball, ok billiard, ok bowling. I play ok beach volleyball. When it comes to work, I always contribute. colleagues are impressed by me. School work is the same. I had success with everything and everyone except her. She makes me feel like a total loser. A lower class. No matter what I do is Nv good enough. All she does is find fault with me.

Do I want to remain a loser all my life? No. I really dun want. But if she dun change at all, I know I would be A loser my whole life. I could be successful in every other things, but when it comes to her, I'd always be the loser.

Maybe I'm just like her Handphone. Its time to change. So like all the time, she's trying to justify. Looks for reason to dispose of me and get a new phone. I dunno.
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