Why did she always have to see herself as spare tire? Am I not giving her sufficient attention? What does she mean as spare tire? Would spare tire always be on my mind? Would I do as much as i did for a spare tire? Always feel lost when she called herself that. Call her in the morning so that can accompany her to her facial appointment. She dun want to talk. Was it because of my mere mention of facebook site being blocked by government that affect her? She hung up on me. breaks my heart again.
I was always taught to compare apple to apple. Not apple to orange. Why would i replace a tire with a lover? I do not understand. I spent most of my time on her, always thinking about her and stuffs. Most of my allowance that's not being spent on food or study, are being spent on her gifts. I know when i am busy, I could not think of other things, but isn't it normal for a human being to be able to do 1 thing at a time? Does a spare tire really gets this much of attention? I drive, and I dun spend as much time or effort with the car's spare tire. I only know that it's in the back of the car. For all I know, it could be punctured, damaged, rusty. But i don't care. =(
I know that you aren't a spare tire. Becos spare tires, will not reject me whenever i need them. How many times have i been rejected for something? I have been denied the rights to talk to her. The rights to wake her up in the morning. I just wanted to accompany her to her facial treatment, but in the end, She just dun want to talk to me. Sad..... It hurts when one's effort is being spent and not being treasured by another person. I could have continued reading for my midterm.
If she call herself spare tire, then i don't know what I am le. Cos I am always the one who need her. She doesn't seem to need me at all. I feel like she only call me becos it's a routine to her. She asked me to online, cos i told her i haven't seen her online. If she need me, she'd look for me when she need me. Does she ever feel like seeing my face, hearing my voice? Cos I do all the time. Does she really need me? I do not know. I hope she does. Now i feel worse than a spare tire.
The only thing that can makes me feel better is the thought that she's willing to come to Thailand to look for me. Still makes me feel needed. Haiz.
