out of her blog. I know, its her right. I totally understand that she needs her privacy. But it just felt like she doesn't want me to know. I dunno how this will affect our relationship, or how i spend my time, or even how it will affect me. I regret..... regretted not backing up her blog so i can refer back, refer back to those happy moments. Its one of those thing that kept me strong. And now, I might nv see them again........
I'll nv see any post on my Birthday le.. We've known each other for 16 years. But she don't know me that well, and we weren't close to each other then. We met again 4 years ago, for a game of Mahjong. Her life was a mess then. Lost her love, many suitors, hence i wasn't notice. I could relate to that. But it's been at least 2 - 3 years since our relationship was close, I have at least 2, maybe 3 birthdays that I can proudly say that I was close to her. But none of her post was for my Birthday. I told her before about it. She just go "Really?". Now I think no more chance le. Even if she post them, I'd not be able to see.... =(
I sincerely hope that this does not mean that I'm not out of her life...... I'm normally not a very superstitious person, and always have my doubt in higher beings. But this time, God please help me.
