17 November 2011

What if....

A sudden what ifs rushed through my mind.....

What if I die before her parents?
I won't know.... She probably would feel nothing.... I will probably die lonely... She would continue to provide for her parents... and probably, if my parents are still alive, they would be able to live off whatever savings they have.... She would be happy off as she don't have any responsibility towards my parents... she is only a gf.. not their daughter in law......

What if she dies before her parents?
Who would take care of her parents? Me? as who? Would they happily accept my aid? Would I be feel responsible enough to take care of them...... We aren't married... She didn't bear me children.... As who do I take responsibility? It may sound morally wrong for me to be so cold hearted... but does it seem morally right for her to leave me such responsibility?

What ifs are scary....... so many what ifs......

No matter what, we won't be tgt.... I dun expect myself to live above 70.... How many years will we have left together? Maybe if I died an accidental death, no one would be around to claim my body.... no one... because nobody has the responsibility to....