Tiring long dist relationship may be over today.... Subconciously I don't want it to happen, but my senses keep telling me its for her best...
It seems like all her problems started becos of me.... All these while I know, but there's nothing I can do about it. Yet the reality is everything is done becos of me. She's putting in so much effort and doing so many things for our future. I wanted to help. But there's nothing I can do right. Financially, I am unable to contribute. Physically I know nuts about the things she wants to do. Mentally, I'm always trying to make her forget the problems we have and the stress she faces. She wanted support from me, which I fail to give....
Since I can't make her happy, I couldn't satisfy her in any way, I only made her life worse, then y do I still stay by her side? What can I give her? I always ask her to wait, but in reality, I am asking to invest in me. So much risks, may not have returns.
Love is not about two person after all... It would have been perfect if I can stay in Singapore, or she willing to let her parents to move to thailand... But in some ways, I am selfish..... I wouldn't give in....
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