Today dinner with friends.... Long time I had dinner with them.. A coincidental one... I was doing work... and they happen to meet to eat... Ask me to join....
I'm so out of their life, I couldn't catch up anything that's happening around them..... I'm so lost in most conversation... I was just sitting there and watching a replay telecast of football match..... Big's 1st GF he got to know on exchange, A Korean girl, had broken up with him.... He got over it liao.... Reason was, they weren't happy... Wondered what I was clinging on to??? M I hanging on, because I'm too old? or because I just dun think other ppl will find me attractive??? I feel sour all the time.... yet.... I want to hang on..... like clinging onto the cliff with my fingers.... Using my whatever fingernail to scratch the rock to make a hole so I can plan my fingers in.... For what???
幸福没了.....
The question came out again... "P'Alan, when are you going to get married???"
Like always, I would tell them not so soon..... I just tell them I dunno.... Even though I knew.... But it's just hard.... pride and ego doing all the talking.....
