I knew she was sick on Monday night le. Tuesday she very sick, she took MC, 1.5 days. Monday I had class, Tuesday I dun, but all the while, i was writing reports for the Friday project. Wednesday she stayed home, Wednesday night I had to work late night for Friday project. I felt bad that I had to be in class whole day, and have to reach home late when she was on MC. I called her to check whether she was better, she went IMM in the morning. She had fishball noodle for lunch. Called her after class, but she didn't answer my call, she called me back when I was driving to friend's place because Friend A cannot stay out late, so have to do at Friend A's house. It may sound stupid, but I dun care then, I just want to get the work done, no matter where it's done. Reached home about 3am.
Thursday, I think I tried waking her up, but she had all her phones flat. I was worried she'd overslept. I was worried, but i dun have her parent's number, nor her house phone number. I sent her a mail, although I know the mail was stupid, because she wouldn't see it, it also wouldn't wake her up, but only thought of it only when i sent the mail. She called me to apologize after seeing my mail. She also told me she had cramps. Slept very little, mind not thinking straight, and I asked her whether she'll jog, or whether she'll go see her acupuncturist even when she'd just told me she is having her menses and is in pain. Asked her whether she felt better, she told me she felt better, and I told her to go see doctor if she dun feel well during work and she said OK. But she soon got upset when I told her how late I reached home. She immediately dun talk to me. I was angry, I immediately thought she was angry because I stayed up so late to work, work is work. Very tired day, cos slept very little. Had to go uni early to prepare for the presentation for my english class. I remember felling asleep for about half an hour in the library after I finished writing the script for English class presentation, which is a requirement to hand in. I woke up at 11++ when i felt too cold. I called her during her lunch break, but she did not answer my call at 11+. I thought maybe she's having lunch with friends. I decided not to disturb her. Then after class, I had to continue to help in doing the slides for Friday presentation. Felt taken advantaged, because I already had to write the report, and the guy responsible for the slides should be doing the slides, he didn't finish the slides, so it's his problem, but decided to stay to help him anyway because it's a group project and presentation plays a big part, without his slides, its the end. Also he helped me out the previous night in my report writing too. We started at 5.30, cos English presentation took a little too long. I called her, before starting, I was hungry too, cos lunch nv eat. So I went to buy a pie, I rmb calling her a few times, but she didn't answer. So I thought maybe she didn't hear the phone ring, or maybe she was bz with work. Thought she'd called back when she knocked off. But at the same time, she normally knock off on time, so the thought that she was angry and decided not to answer my call came to mind. Then I went back to work. It only dawn to me that she nv call back at about 7+, I decided to call her again. She did not answer, then I thought normally this time she was watching tv. So i decided to wait for later. But was getting disappointed because she actually nv called back as expected. Then 8+ I called her again and couldn't get her. She must be watching TV I thought, so I thought she might call back, and I decided to continue working. then the light at the place we worked went off, then I realized that it's 10pm, the building will switch off the light at 10, leaving only lights on ground floor on, I was on 3rd floor working then. Realized it was 10 pm and she didn't call me back. Was super pissed cos dun understand why she could get so angry and not call me back. We continued to work and went to do it on the ground floor where light is still on. Couldn't really work after that. Went home at 11+ pm. reached home almost 1am.
Friday, I called to wake her up, but she didn't answer my phone, she was already up. Due to being too tired, I decided to sleep for 1 more hour, wait for her to call me, cos she always call me every morning. She should have been over it liao, cos it's really a minor problem, it's work. I decided to sleep 1 more hour. Thinking she would call me, but she didn't. I ended up waking up at almost 9. Super upset, that she can get angry over such small matter. Felt not needed. She dun need me to wake her up, she dun need me to accompany her to work. She was upset ytd, but today is already another day le. Super upset. Decided to boycott her for the whole day and I did. I did my presentation in the evening. Class ended at 8pm. But another project needed to be presented on Monday morning. So meeting again after 8. Decided that we have to start doing something. Since Monday presentation, we have to come up with the prototype of our new product, a green tea, I decided to go hunt for good looking bottle. Took sometime to find one, reached home at 11+, disappointed that she actually didn't even need to call me. I have urges to call her, but because she was ignoring me, and the timing wasn't right, I decided not to call her. She had the worst day of her life. She didn't tell me.
Saturday and Sunday was work work work. With literally 48 hours to finish my work. The 48 hours, I have been out interviewing people, looking for information, making vdo, thinking of how to make the vdo, thinking of the scripts, doing the slides, designing the packaging of the product, designing the message on the product, the launch of the product. Did not call, cos I was really busy. I believed she's home, so if she's unwell, she's also resting for the weekend.Not a great reason for not calling her.
She emailed me on Sunday morning, getting angry with me, saying I dun care for her, saying I only call her when I am free. I wasn't free on those days i called her. I wasn't free since so long ago le. Doing projects after projects. I had a presentation on Wednesday, Thursday, Friday and finally last one on Monday. Wednesday needed 30 pages report. Thursday presentation needed a 5 minutes script, Friday needed a 20 pages report with font 10 single spacing. I was busy like never before. Before last weekend, I was working on 3 projects, 2 reports, and 1 essay. I called her because I was concerned. I called her because i cared. She was angry, so she didn't call me. But is there a good reason for her to be angry? She's disappointed with me for not calling her for 2 days, but in fact, I called her 1 of the day, she didn't answer because she was busy, she didn't call me back for because she dun feel like talking to me. It's also the day she had menses pain. So I should be responsible for that too right? I did not call her on Friday because she didn't call me. I know it's childish, but after calling so many time and not getting called answered, and she dun bother to call me back, can't I get upset for that reason?
I know I shouldn't reply her such a mean message, but she was angry because she was working late into the night, having menses pain, having cold and couldn't take MC cos she have to cover her colleague, which is not true, cos I did, I didn't even remember until I sit down and think back. I am suppose to be responsible for her getting angry and not pick up my call nor call back?
I felt wronged....... I dun care if it's whose fault, but being branded as not caring for her because she didn't want to pick my call, or too busy to pick up my call, or dun want to talk to me and not return call, simply wasn't fair..... If you're reading this, I am not angry, I just want to recall things to take away the confusion. You were in the worst day of your life, and I wasn't there. I understand your anger. It's just something to make sure that I still care for you. Now i found the reason behind not calling you, I understood everything now. Although you may call it an excuse. I didn't have a great time myself, working like zombie. The sleepless night and the work stress didn't help make me talk any nicer too. I sincerely am wrong for not replying nice. No use to play the blame game, I just post this to clear my head. I may neglect you, but I knew i care for you and I do love you. Dun make accusation like that, cos it hurts. It hurt even more when I am not in the best of condition to think clearly, felt like taken advantaged. But its over le. Over le. So no need to talk about it le. I won't talk about it le.
