Woke up, brush my teeth.... I do this everyday, but today, I looked at the place where I keep my toothbrush.... and hers is missing.... I knew it would, since she isn't here, but still, I can see how lonely my toothbrush looks. It's not near my family member's toothbrush, although we only have 3 people staying in the house, 6 slots in the toothbrush cabinet to put the toothbrush, and all are taken..... Mine is always outside... always alone... But whenever she's here, she would always put her toothbrush beside mine... Feelings are like I am the toothbrush.....
Recently have been really busy with work... have 4 assignments on hand, and none of which are really progressing really well... I have a writer's block. I have plenty of things to write in the report, but I just can't seem to arrange them correctly. But I think I have to persevere so that I won't disappoint her. She wanted me to study hard before she went back home.....
She'll be away next week.... from wednesday to Saturday... 4 long days that I won't be able to wake her up or will she be calling me due to the heavy expense of calling overseas while roaming. But I'll on the msn everyday while she's not here. I'll get on MSN from my BB so that she can reach me as and when she needs....
Some people may ask why do I have to wake her up everyday, when I can actually sleep longer. Especially when I worked very late into the night... I really can't answer why, but it's just something I want to do... it's something I feel I can do for her. I want to do it for the rest of my life. Waking her up. Whether by phone, or with a kiss. I want to be the 1st person she talk to, or the 1st person she sees everyday. For the rest of her life. It's something I can't explain too. It's just something I want to do. And if it making her life easier, then that'd be best. The only problem is when I am here and she's there, I really do not know whether she woke up, or she's still sleeping. I called her this morning and she couldn't hear the phone ring, hence didn't answer the phone call. But I thought she just woke up earlier than normal, thought that she's in some kind of dilemma again. I heard her scold he nephew last night when we were on the phone, and she suddenly dun feel like talking. Suddenly felt like there's more than our distant that's between us. There's so many obstacles between us. I just hope we get past all of them. Praying hard for her mom to have the wisdom to understand her concern and worries.
