I miss her... But everytime I think of her.... I feel down....
Y didn't she think about me when making a decision... Everyone else but me....
My life plans, I want to plan them, yet somehow or rather, my life does not just revolve around myself..... Everyone had a share in planning my life..... She planned that we will not have a family... Not even the two of us... Even if we have the document for it, it is for other purpose.. Our start was by her... I guess ending it would also be her...
I could have acquired a degree a few years back if my parents hadn't asked me to come Thailand... Due to my dad hospitalized.... My NS delayed half a year due to some stupid mistake by those NS clerk.... My diploma course choice was affected by friends psycho.... Grow up in Singapore and Thailand also decided by parents and government... Even my birth was an accident....
Maybe next life, my life would be normal.... Would be less mishap.... This life had been wrong since birth.... Cannot do anything about it.... Try to live with no regrets..... That's all I can do....
Until next life.... I'll be happy with what I have... For now....
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