Feeling disposable again

She walked away from me again..... I thought she walked to the toilet.... So I waited and waited..... It took her abit long, but I saw loads of people walking into the toilet, so I thought maybe the toilet was crowded..... I didn't even care who went in or who else came out.... I just knew that she wasn't out... Then all of a sudden she appear behind me..... At that time, I knew she walked away from me again.... I am super angry... I wasn't allow to hang her phone, but that gave her rights to walk away from me... She shouldn't have come back for me.....

I sent her to work, waited for her to finish lunch with her colleague.... we promised to watch movie, go orchard, but nothing..... I was sick the 1st day I came back.... I persevere... I walked on.... I even drank the super horrible herbal tea, which doesn't work, just so I could feel better.. So I could walk more..... I dun want to disappoint her.... Just so I could accompany her to see her Miu Miu wallet and LV bag.... The return I get was her back shadow, walk aways and blames..... It's not that I care about going out. She's sick, I also want her to rest. It's suppose to be my holiday, she fell sick, I should be the most affected..... 1 more day gone... but she choose to throw her temper at me again..... again..... feel all the things I did all wasted...... wasted.....

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