I go in to read her blog..... I feel angry... and upset.... Angry at myself... for being weak.... Angry at her for not posting anything... She used to say she likes doing it.... I guess its another lie... But who am I to angry over that right now??? But the worst part was the upset.... I am always reminded by her "words of wisdom".... You meant the world to someone.... I guess its easy to say that I don't mean anything..... While she on the other hand, keep toying with my feelings just because she meant the world to me.. I feel like I cannot love anyone anymore... its like I am scared... too scared... too scarred... too painful.. I feel something big is going to happen in my life soon..... Something is about to change my life.... A big transition...
I gotta stop going in to see her post...... I gotta stop feeling for her..... I need to be free from the emotional lock up....
"give her some time.." Then she disappeared....... Some time for? How long is some time? Sorry for? I guess its not that we don't communicate.... I guess its just she not communicating.... Maybe it really wasn't meant for me....
