so....
Complain:
I didn't want to add to her stress, and I think she didn't come to see it for the same reason..... She didn't want to feel the stress of reading it..... Its good that she didn't come in, because now I can complain without worrying about her.....
I have been keeping these to myself.... I have headaches.... I have trouble sleeping... even if I slept, I would wake up at weird timings making myself really tired..... I am tired, but I couldn't rest.... I couldn't rest.... I tried to cover myself with work, but I always have thinking time.... and my mind wonder when I think.... shit shit shit.....
Dun want her to worry for me..... yet... I yearn for the concern.... I yearn for her concern.....
I suspect I have high blood pressure now... because of the headaches I've been having...
