Yet... I hadn't felt more lonely..... It feels like.... I cannot talk to her.... It felt pointless talking to her..... What's the point when she don't listen, and she expect me to only understand her...... It feels like talking to my dad..... I am sad.... I am tired.... I want to tell people.... yet... I don't want to look weak in front of anyone else but her.... Yet..... I don't want to add to her stress...... Bottled up.... Dunno when I will explode.....
Recently very bad mood......
My dad talked about someone he knew who slipped and fall in the toilet and died...... that person was only 30+.... then suddenly he said "That's why I insisted on using the anti-slip mat.".... It's nothing serious.... but in my head, I was getting pissed...... I was the one who bought those mats lor... You only complained, but did nothing about it lor..... Then I went to find the anti slip mat lor!!! I remember I couldn't find the cheaper version, so I bought the expensive one. Cost about 1,300 each lor... spend about 2,600 to buy 2 back lor.... because its all I could afford lor..... then I found the cheap ones.... buy many put in toilet in office lor.... then he was the kaypoh one who cut the mat lor.. cut until cannot use other place lor.....
I still remember when I bought the cheap ones, I do in the toilet, but 1st time buy not enough... buy 2nd time lor...... What he insist!!!????!!! Only know how to take credit from other people's effort.... IDIOT....
I was pissed.... at such a small thing..... dunnoe is stress or what..... shit.....
